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About Marie

Happily married to the same awesome guy for many years. Love God, reading, cats, and travel. Avid crafter especially counted cross stitch and crochet.

Why?

Have you ever experienced the pain of the Spirit within?  Have you ever been so totally unsettled with a spiritual decision that you can’t even find the words to pray about it?  Have you ever known with all your heart, mind, and soul that something being done by those who are your leaders is not only wrong, but totally not in the best interests of the body?

Can you explain to me why people want to change God to fit their earthly desires?  Can you tell me why the Bible isn’t big enough for some?  Can you tell me why there is such a feeling of defeat when this happens?

What is the solution?  Where are the words?  When will man stop trying to do it better than God?

My heart is breaking, my soul is aching, I have no words, I fear for the future.  Yet my Lord has clearly shown me in so many of these situations that my empty prayers are going to Him with groans and utterings that I can’t understand (Romans 8:26).  He has told me that He truly has my best interests and future in His plan (Jeremiah 29:11).  He sent the Paraclete, the Holy Counselor, to advise me when things don’t seem right (John 16:6-8).  And above all He loves me so much more than I can even fathom (John 3:16).

Abba, I know You are in control of all situations.  I know You have a plan.  Lord calm my heart and give me the peace that passes all understanding.  I believe You and Your word.  Give me peace, Lord.  As I lift this prayer before the throne let me and anyone else who doesn’t get it know that You are working in the background for the greater glory of the Kingdom.  Amen and Make it so.

WORSHIPFUL WAYS

The words of a well know praise song by Tim Hughes have been ringing in my heart for days.

Here I am to Worship – Worship is not about me.  It is about God.

Here I am to bow down – Time on my knees is necessary to reminding me of my position as a Believer.  Although I am much loved by the Holy One I am not Him.

Here I am to say that You’re my God – There can be no other god in my life.  This includes stuff, people, pets, food, clothes…That is not to say I’m not to have it but whatever in my life is taking His place, has to go.

You’re altogether lovely – You have allowed me to discover You in the beauty of ALL Your creation.

Altogether holy – Completely set aside for Your plan and not able to be less than who You are.

Altogether wonderful to me – You have forgiven, provided, and sheltered me throughout my life.

James 4:8 says “Come near to God and He will come near to You.”  When I am worshipping and get distracted guess who moved?  During our times of worship we are to be totally focused on God.  Our fervent prayer needs to be that all the distractions, noises, and voices around us are silenced, for us personally, so God will be the center of attention.  His greatest desire is that our relationship with Him will be our greatest desire.

Ah, Lord, God You are my Light, my Life, my Salvation, my Joy, my Hiding Place, my One and Only.  You have given me the beauty of Your creation to know You.  I praise You.  I honor You.  I worship You.  You are all that really matters.  Amen

SHEEP SMELL

Like it or not sheep smell and the Great Shepherd knows it but HE still wants to be with us.  I don’t know about you but smell is one of my most enhanced senses.  I love the smell of a great dinner, of carnations, of freshly mowed grass, of good perfume (no musk, I’m allergic), fresh coffee, cinnamon rolls, Christmas cookies, Ray’s cologne…..   I do not like farm animal smells, skunks, cigars, waste, spoilage, nursing homes, death (yes, it does have a smell). 

God insists that I get over this and often puts me in situations where I have to forget the smell for the sake of relationship.  In John 21:15-17 we are told to feed My lambs, tend My sheep, then feed My sheep.

First we are to feed the lambs.  These are baby sheep.  Now why did I need to say that?  Because they can’t feed themselves.  Unless the mother is attentive to the needs of her young they will not thrive or survive.  That is what we need to keep in mind when a person comes to believing in the LORD.  Without the help of the believers around them new ‘babes’ will not grow.  Feeding the lambs means taking the new believer under our wings and teaching them the Word and what it means to their lives.

Next, we are to tend the sheep.  At this point the sheep are adults and need serious care.  Sheep are prone to wander (Luke 15), as are we.  If there are no shepherds to tend we will wander into disaster areas.  Decision making is tough and without adequate guidance poor choices will be made.  There have been many tenders in my life including friends, family, pastors, teachers…without them I would have taken the Word and made it what I wanted it to be.  These very special people have taken their hooked staff and pulled me back from the edge of the cliff.  They have directed my ‘stubborn (who me?) sheep’ mentality toward right choices.

Then we are to feed the sheep.  Feeding adult sheep is different from feeding lambs.  No longer needing their mother’s milk they need a nutritious, healthy diet that makes them strong enough to continue the process of regeneration.  What?  If the sheep are to survive and continue to thrive into the future they need to have a steady diet of food, grains, and water with rest and care as they need it.  This is the same for us.  We need to have a constant source of love and guidance to keep us on the right path.  We get this through, prayer, study, worship and other Christians.

The Gentle Shepherd will help us find our way…we need only ask.

Gentle Shepherd, come and feed us.  Give us strength and courage to go to those who can guide and help us through this journey.  Lead us on the right paths.  Let our lives be about honoring You in all we say and do.  I lift this prayer in the precious name of Jesus, my Lord and Savior.  Make it so.

MIRACLES AND MERCIES

It hardly seems like a year has passed since our Great Miracle, yet it has.  On October 30, 2010 Ray fell over the cat gate causing a Traumatic Brain Injury w/ Subdural Hematoma.  He was taken to Bryan Hospital Emergency who diagnosed the situation, then was life-flighted to University of Toledo Medical Center (formerly MCO), where surgery was performed to remove the blood that had gathered.  After 5+ hours of surgery the surgeon met with me and told me that he was in very critical condition, his brain had shifted right of center, and had only a 50% chance of survival.  He was in a drug induced coma, with feeding tubes and respirator for 20 days.  When he awoke he knew me and others as they came to visit.  (Please realize there was a very real possibility he would know no one.)  As days passed after that more and more of his memory was regained and he was sent to UTMC Boot Camp Therapy.  He learned to walk, talk, think, and go about the business of life.  On day 39 he was released from the Hospital TO COME HOME.  He had several months of rehabilition ahead but he was home.  (The original prognosis had been 6 months in the hospital and a year or more of intensive rehabilitation.)

I can’t even describe how thankful I am for this great miracle.  Everyday, as I sent out emails to let family, friends, and colleagues know what was going on I ended the post with, ‘GOD IS IN CONTROL’.  And He is.  Every part of the care Ray received was exactly what he needed.  From his brain surgeon, Dr. Guidon, to his ICU nurses, to the many other doctors, technicians, etc., who gave his care, were in God’s control.  How do I know this?  I put it there.  I told God I had no idea what decisions to make and needed His help when I was told in the initial diagnosis at Bryan that Ray was in Serious Critical condition and would need to be life flighted.  HE clearly told me HE was in control and would help me in every way.  HE DID. 

There was one other thing that was happening too.  That was the prayers of the Faithful.  Hundreds of old and new friends and family were alerted to the situation in many churches across the country and our Glorious God heard them.  He not only is incredibly merciful in His actions but we have been told of many who now believed that God still does miracles.  We do not always know what His definitive plan is but we do know that we were in His arms every minute of the situation.  I was able to rest in the comfort of His love constantly without fear and with the knowledge that he was there with me, again.  “Oh, How He Loves You and Me!”

Many who love us, more than I ever thought possible, were with us that day and for the many that followed.  They were there because they knew how much I needed their physical comfort.  They were there because the Spirit was saying Ray and Marie need you.  I am so blessed by all of you.  I can’t say thank you enough.

Shortly before Ray told me he had a serious problem, several hours after the fall, I had been dreaming.  I drempt that I was quietly walking, in a soothing garden, with Jesus.  We were not talking, we were just enjoying one another’s company.  I know without doubt that, as I look back on it, He was saying I am here, let Me lead.  Whether one believes in dreams or not the memory of that was enough to get me through and remind me HE IS HERE for us.

God’s Word is true.  When He says in Jeremiah 29:11 that He has a plan for us HE MEANS IT.  When He says in Jeremiah 29:12-13 that He will hear the prayers of His people HE MEANS IT.  When He says He will answer in the same verses HE MEANS IT!

Ah, Lord, God, Creator of all that was, is, and is to come, You are all we need in the overwhelming trouble that surrounds us.  You are more merciful and loving than we deserve.  You hear me and answer me.  You still perform miracles.  You are the One and Only,  Awesome God and Jehovah Jirah (my provider).  Continue Your healing and giving us strength and forgive us when we forget that You are the One in control.  I lift this prayer to the throne in the Precious Name of Jesus.

NO SHAME

I’ve been spending some time looking at just a few of the excellent Believers blogs in cyberspace.  I am absolutely delighted at the hundreds/thousands of believers who openly share their faith experiences.  Why?  I’ve read so many statistics that say the Christian faith is waning.  When I look at one of these blogs I don’t think so. 

God has given man the brains to create the technology that will share His word all over the world.  I love it that so many are using it.  These blogs are definitely an example of Romans 1:16.

We are expected to go and tell (Matthew 28:18-20).  This command is not just meant for directly spoken words or books.  We are to use any and all the means necessary to get the message out. 

Do not think that I am naive enough to think that all blogs are faithful in their message.  Unfortunately I’ve come across a few that really need to spend more time studying the Word.  For the most part what I’ve seen and read is a real example of ‘going and telling’ the Gospel.

I am so blessed by these faithful writers.

Heavenly Father thank you for the joy of reading so many excellent  writers.  Father, give us all strength and courage to say what needs to be said in the days ahead.  Let all the Fruit of the Spirit mature in us as we share You to world around.  Give us the integrity to write our stories using Your Word exactly as You want it taught.  I lift this prayer to the Mighty and Awesome GOD in the precious name of Jesus — Make it so.